i guess im wrong.. i haven gone through the most difficult energy draining.. time consuming.. emotionally draining.. psychologically draining.. in the utmost denial stage that things could possibly turn out the wrong way for any of my love ones.. i haven seen through a dear ones gg through cancer.. and I DONT WANT TO! -eventhough i did find out tt dear almarhum grandad passed away due to something r/t the brain and i kinda figure out its cancerous..
and i haven went throught an ultraly dysfunctional family..WHEN im at the righteous state of mind.. -and I DONT WANT TO!
i mean all this super personal.. super close kinda things.. its almost unimaginable to be happening.. but it does!
and NO! we CAN NVR think.. it'll only happen to everyone else-all arnd the neighbouthood- except ME!
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Saturday, August 30, 2008
ok fine i dunno where to begin.. things have seriously been sooo super hectic! and i'm getting desperate for more time! graaahs!!
anws.. heres an outing with siti and kimmi.. we were suppose to go to ikea to eat! and then walk arnd... bt b4 tt.. we even sempat to get stuck in a traffic jam in ubi and get lost while finding our way to cgh.. tt was really funny.. ok tt part i drove! hahahas!!! with a whole lot of direction from siti! ok im like super bad in direction! like gosh! hahahahs!! den we head to ikea.. had lunch cum dinner..and gossip abt .......... for like super loooong! i tink we wont get bored talking abt her! just disgusted! LOL!! okok.. then we gt teachers day present! for imran's teacher and for siti's colleagues.. and then.. we walked and walked and walked.. before dropping me off at hougang!
driving hme!
and for the record! i cant park w/o poles! like WTH!!!!! i tried once with siti's car.. NOPE! take a look!
btw its da black in between the 2 red cars! in case you dont notice! hahahs!
i even tried with the lorry.. DOESNT WORK! i kena horn lagi ade! i shall try with the van nxt! tmr.. hopefully!
and "dorie is always the last one" in duckie's tone! hahas!
there you go.. guess who's daim pie is tt..
siti: whats this??
me: oh.. you put your hand in it when your hands feel cold!.. and...!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAS! a kid's feet socks!! LOL!!!
and kimmi found new love!
while siti found smtg better!
wei wei wei! i meant the box ok! not smtg else! dont anyhow think ok! LOL!!!!
okok.. anws.. ramadhan is like 1 day away...
so SELAMAT BERPUASA PPL!!! puasa jgn tak puasa.. puasa yok yok is NOT considered as puasa!! hahahaa! yes yes.. may we all be at our bestest best behaviour.. attitude and mind at this most mulia month! =)))
sidetrack!:
i dunno if everything is gg to cont like this.. bt you know.. i'm going to live day by day.. with or w/o ppl i care.. i've been thru super tight, difficult and almost breaking situation.. bt with allah's guidance im still here.. i thought you knew how i'd take situation like this.. i'll make it to the end by hook or by crook..
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10:38 PM <3
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im a happy bitch! not only the day was incredible with THEM!
i was blessed with a catch up session with a dearest friend! one in the aftnn.. and another one abt an hour ago! god.. i hope life really stays in this manner for as loong as possible.. cuz i'm feeling sooo god blessed that i even exist in this non-livable life!
and as for today! we end the day with a visit to the
yes kotex booth.. aft being coaxed and dragged into its tentage! and fazreen became the wii's champion la arhs!!! hahahas!! we were cheering her on wth pong pongs! LOL!!!! sooo funnnnniiiiiiieeeeee!!! LOL!!!
certain conflicts take some time to heal.. while others takes a longer time.. it all depends on the individual! and for our cases.. we both have attitude problem.. which makes things even worse! i'm still living and enjoying life w/o you.. so thank you for your non-impact-able time in my life's journey..
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2:12 AM <3
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see i told you i was under an immense pressure to pass my tp! ppl arnd me are more excited then i am...!! hahahs... okok.. i WAS feeling at my ultra peak initially.. but seeing others feel sooo happy for me.. is just incredible!its like.. you just cant control it.. cuz its NOT your emotions.. and seeing others happy just simply makes me happy! LOL! and the ppl whom im surrounded by.. from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU!!! i feel sooo god damn blessed!
there was this girl who took her tp with me.. and while i was soooo busy texting the niceee news.. and entertaining congrats msgs and calls.. she wasnt.. i repeat WASNT even on the phone!.. omg cans.. and i kinda feel bad for cuz she cant spread wonderful news.. i mean it might be a small achievement.. but the process of wanting to achieve and actually achieving it is simply incredible! anws.. heres alan's free gift for me! =))
got 888 summore! hahahs!!
and! my week ahead!
sun: out with the seniors!
mon: out with the honeybun of the lot!
tues: meet up with anthony and dinner with charm*
weds: catch up with nabil* + sha* + fadz*
thurs: shan2 flying off to sydney for her overseas posting!! im jealous! LOL!!!
jia you ok sweetheart!! mai gancheong.. and mai stress stress! =)))!!! + dinner with siti, kimmi and shidah.
friday: movie mania with kh!
sat: set up at jurong..
sun: with ami ayob's event.
things that NEED to be done:
get OT slippers/sandals
clear up my room!
furniture hunting for my room!
ROB THE BANK! cuz i need money!
strt being a good girl! cuz ramadhan is drawing real near!
things that i WANT:
CUT hair!
SHOPPING!
i want a car..!!
fix the train..
a painting from sharon!
sew my 1st top!
hahhahas! oh btw! met zack just now! gosh. soo loong nvr see him! and that old man looks even older... drained himself out to the max each and everyday la thats why.. haiiiyooo....
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1:20 AM <3
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Saturday, August 23, 2008
him: today i send my daughter for her tp..
me: ohh.. you book for her tp just now arhs?!
him: no la.. you la my daughter! must do properly ok!
me: of cuz! my father driving instructor le! LOL!!!! =)))
the immense pressure for me to pass tp was sooo incredible.. i cldnt even think of not passing!
den he sent me all the way to the door there and remind me for the countless of times.. JGN CUAK ok! LOL! -SITI!!!! LOL!!!
god.. i tink he's like damn sweet just now la.. then aft a while can ring me up who's my tp officer.. and then.. ask which route im taking.. and JGN CUAK ok! good luck good luck! LOL!!!
okok i gtg.. byees..
and btw.. I PASSED!!! I PASSED!!! I PASSED!!!! the RC's tradition lives on! LOL!!! -am sooo god damn EXCITED!!!
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1:05 PM <3
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DONE! no more nyp besides graduation day!
gosh.. just now's paper.. the mgt part's Saq was a goner qns arhs.. its like i totally lose it.. and i kinda emo-ed abit when i raise my hands up to leave.. soo many thought running in my mind.. cuz its like da last paper.. and i seriously thought i could do soo much better then what i've done.. -so yes there was a major dissapointment on my part.. and then comes the feeling of.. 'this is going to be my last time here.. raising my hands.. and leaving this hall.' HAHAHAHS! i know.. like WTH! hahahs!
okok.. but outing with the dearest of the LOT was INCREDIBLE! we didnt do much.. but yet we were drained out to the very last drop of haemoglobin! hahhas.. i present you my honey buns and the DEAREST OF THEM LOT!
and them!
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AND them!
and them!
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and NOT FORGETTING!
AND!!!!
dorie<333333 nr0608!
~ok dont run away.. i got more picts to put up including out FYP! eventhough i DONT have a pict of our goodie bag! =((!
i'd love to put it all out here now.. but! alan warn me not to touch the computer today! hahahs!
ouhs! a special shoutout to MAS! and NABIL! and AZRIE! and SHANLING! the 1st 3 for their consistant moral support through my very not plesant journey through the week! and the last one! for all the last minute info's!
my ohh sooo very stressful week is ending!! =)))!!
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12:10 AM <3
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Thursday, August 14, 2008
HS3107 is OOOOOOVER!!! lalalas! yes the psyco cum socio module is over and done with..
and we're left with med surg, onco-elder care-acutely ill AND mgt&community!! yes 3 more to go PLUS tp and IM done of a stressful week! yes nxt week is going to be ohhh sooo ultra stressful! god!
ok mas and the DEFAULTED you guys better not dissappear! azrie promised to txt well wishes everynight of impt events tt he knows of.. but happened tt he frgt once.. and i made sure he was arnd for me to scream at whenever im like over the volcano already! LOL!!! -but you guys know im such a nice person.. (internal attribution!)
anws.. aft sch straight away meet up with alan la... den gt this person called.. wan him to be her driving instructor la! den damn funny! ok cuz he on the loud speaker and i cant help but to hear! and she gave him her I/C no. and its S89******!
and aft he hang up i was like.. -.-"!!!!! to him.. and alan was like.. sama macam lu la! WTH!! den he strted complaining abt 1989 babies are all very STUBBORN! and how 1 of his student.. he ask to turn left.. the student happily ignore him and goes straight.. and how he asked me to stop behind the yellow box yest i dutifully follow the lorry in front of me and ignore him!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAS!!!! theres no bus anws was my retaliation.. and he LAUGHED! not nagged!!! hahahahhas!!!
graaaaahhhhs i wanna PASS TP SOOOOO BADLY!!!!!!!
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11:26 PM <3
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read yest's straits times?! if you haven got your hands on it.. GO! beg, steal or borrow... scram arnd if you need to! LOL!.. anws.. its abt an article written by this malay reporter.. and in the case that singaporeans are soo obnoxious nowadays to even notice these minor details.. there.. its been splattered across that small article in the view of the nation's bday.
the title of the article is : i feel like i'm SINGAPORE'S LEAST FAVOURITE CHILD. whereby one issue the reporter speaks of is how our so called multiracial country STILL have a HUGE prob about hiring malay females who 'wears a religion on her head' (as quoted by the reporter).. which i find particularly true.. wearing a tudung doesnt make us disabled in anyways.. cuz islam is a religion that doesnt MENYUSAHKAN-trouble its followers.. we can always substitute the tudung for smtg else.. bandana.. cap.. hat.. and cover the neck section with smtg else.. wear a turtle neck for instant..
so anws.. it does kind of speak how we the malay community are GENERALLY being treated here in sg. and thus.. hopefully it does improve.. or many will share the same options as the reporter.. who's very tempted to migrate.
with all due respect sg is still indeed my/our homeland.. =)
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5:27 PM <3
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Saturday, August 09, 2008
yes was the last day of sch.. 080808.. how easy for us to rmb! hahahs.. despite our very final day of being a student! norain decided to still be a bitch.. sighhs..
anws... i decided to make smtg for my darls.. budden... i underestimated the time needed and so it was left incomplete... so to my wonderful darlings wait for me on the 21st! lalalas~
i have quite a no. of pics to post! no picts of nurses day celebration! wasnt even in sch! sorry! hahas.. anws..i realise throughout my 3 years on poly edu! i NVR once attended the nurses day celebration sia!! 1st yr.. am on attachment.. 2nd yr.. attachments too! and my last year.. it just has to be.. no lesson on tt day.. and to spent hours just on bus rides.. arghs... so yes..
anws back! i'll post up many many MANY pics of my dearest ppl in nyp aft the 21st ok.. i still need to catch up with the oth grps ppl to get a snip snap! =))))
and ALAN! yes the darling alan.. i already has weds thurs fri booked just for him!... it wont be enough trust me.. sighss..
anws..i tink i seriously need to strt opening up my books.. graahs!
wish me all the best ppl! cuz i really need it!
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10:11 AM <3
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Wednesday, August 06, 2008
2 more days of sch... 4 more days of exams.. and goodbye to nyp! omg!! have i mention that time realy truely flies..
but this! 3 years of education seems to utterly flies.. im not sure if im ready for working life just yet! but surely and truely.. i'll miss NYP like nobody's business la! gosh.. nr0608 will be truely and greatly missed!
ok i'll typed out my farewell msges to all the honeybuns and pies in the upcoming entries.. as for now.. JIA YOU ppl.. 4 more papers to go.. to see each others faces before we're all seperated to the diff hosp!
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nadirah hearts you!
12:18 PM <3
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driving hme!
btw its da black in between the 2 red cars! in case you dont notice! hahahs!
HAHAHAHAHHAS! a kid's feet socks!! LOL!!!
wei wei wei! i meant the box ok! not smtg else! dont anyhow think ok! LOL!!!!
got 888 summore! hahahs!!
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and NOT FORGETTING!
AND!!!!
dorie<333333 nr0608!